There is a very subtle yet crucial difference between "Lonely" and "Alone" - with the latter giving off a more 'willing' feeling. Back in my secondary school days (Or was it JC?), I used to take random trips to museums after school all by myself. This hobby only surfaced after someone told me that there are actually museums in Singapore that offer free entries lol. Free stuff are always enticing no? So I went to a lot, only when I'm free of course!

It was unexpectedly nice, and I find it a pity that museums in Singapore don't get enough recognition. After exploring a museum, I would stay out longer and walk the streets of Raffles Place (I had a curfew of 7pm back then, and it felt like a waste to go home early when my curfew time was already so early LOL). But I loved the feeling of just walking without a destination set in mind. Singapore is so small, you can walk to nowhere and there is still a bus home.

As I grew up, I find myself getting more and more busy and having no time to do it anymore. Moreover, I find myself getting more and more fearful of being "alone" - basically lonely.

I think I need to start embracing being alone again.